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August 24, 2021 at 11:48 am #385248
I appreciate how you still recall my previous posts btw, and part of that is perhaps true. Even though I’m in a fairly better mental position than before, there are still long term complications too which I need to deal with.
But I also think these problems are not instantly work through-able or that I still need to get my other things in life done before being able to solve more complicated things mentally step by step. It’s a weird dilemma I guess in some way.May 1, 2021 at 11:00 pm #379048
Yes that is very spot on as I’d say, I love how you could figure it out. It is accurate, they try and be understanding sometimes but they always end up putting their thoughts and beliefs about career, money and other prospects above everything, mostly even above our (me and my brother’s) wellbeing.May 1, 2021 at 10:58 pm #379047
Yes it is but also not entirely. My parents never understood me, yes. However they weren’t my only source of validation though, I’ve had and tried making a lot of friends and met a lot of people in terms of romantic relationships and that makes me feel more and more like I don’t always align with everyone in terms of how I see life as, and don’t properly match the energy of my friends.
Parents are certainly a part, but they’re just a part of it. Ultimately its from an overall experience I speak of.May 1, 2021 at 3:07 am #379012
It is somewhat that, but also its the other way around. I am aswell dependent on them sometimes for the materialistic things, however it’s not something lack of which deeply impacts me. I’m more worried on the emotional states of myself and everyone I love and I just hope it keeps improving slowly, moreso I can overcome the setbacks and challenges on my path.
Thank you so much for listeningMay 1, 2021 at 3:05 am #379011
Thank you for the concern yet again, it’s relevant to more my situation where I perhaps see a deeper turn of things happening. I’ve always wanted to feel understood but I never got that, due to my parents being more goal driven and emotionally unaware. However I don’t blame them because perhaps they weren’t brought up that way and also maybe because even though they don’t understand me emotionally or can’t support it and sometimes make it hard for me with more and more responsibilities, they still provide for me in terms of basic needs. However I’m slowly shifting that as I’ve started to work myself.
At the same time my parents aswell as my brother is trying to accomplish more with their careers, however even though all of us are safe and stable, my brother’s constantly trying for a job and he’s breaking apart. Because it’s tough competition and how things are going, I really do see him trying but slowly he’s breaking apart aswell. And that just makes me break apart too.
And about other’s directly hurting me, is through my prospects in relationships, I get my trust broken every time I believe in someone, perhaps it’s misfortune but it’s not been good at all. And being sensitive as I am, it’s harder for me to overcome the hard takes and move on.April 28, 2021 at 10:49 pm #378886
It is true somewhat, it’s always the pain seeking out to me in the form of failure, disappointment, heartbreak and just a point where life isn’t working out at all.
And it comes from every angle, some not wanting to make me feel this way but still it hurts me, other’s wanting to directly hurt me on their own. I am busy and working, I’m still grateful for the things I own, for the life I lead however, I also want to progress, I also want to achieve things, be emotionally successful and reach a point where my efforts will matter in dealing with my problems. My family members not having success in their careers makes me feel all the more pain because I see them putting in the effort. Then again I’m trying myself to advance in my career but, nothing’s working out within a time like this where opportunities are very little and I’m mostly helpless.
And the complications inside me haunt me aswell, thinking about how I grew up to me so emotionally aware and sensitive towards life, challenges are usual and good, and I can personally take them, but I end up being more worried when the ones I care about can’t face them properly. And then there’s all other aspects of life.
However I’m still pushing through and still believing my efforts won’t go into waste and that maybe someday the table will turn around with me getting to know things better and becoming smarter and happier overtime. Thank you so much for reaching out aswell.