@Jay2023 thanks bro for the comforting words. I’m so sorry to be so self absorbed. My chest is in knots. Are you doing okay?

I really hope she isn’t having cold feet mate but I can’t shake the feeling, it’s just not like her to react like this but then we’ve never argued to this degree either. We butt heads often but laugh it off and we both love having that yin and yang to us too because it makes us grow together. If she doesn’t get in contact over the weekend it will be the longest whilst in a relationship we’ve not spoken at all. I just have this urgency to go to hers and hold her and tell her I’m sorry in person. I’m such a dick man. I finally have the most beautiful, kind, giving woman and I still manage to mess it up she wasn’t even asking anything  bad of me but trying to help me heal.