Thank you Anita,

That sums up my life!  The scariest part is that I don1t remember so much of my teens and early 20s. It’s like they just vanished or just never happened. Every time I get reminded of those times, I get this urge to go back and relive my teens and 20s. The more I journal the more “issues” I discover.

You are most probably right. My mother still lives in the apartment I grew up in. Hence, so many memories and flashbacks. At the moment, I’m unfortunately stuck here. I have to work on shifting my perspective toward self-acceptance, with all my flaws and bad habits. It’s a daily struggle, and I hope I have the strength to start and the strength to keep fighting.