Hi all. I am going to wrap it up. I appreciate all the advice. I wish I had more time, but I have an important exam in a week and I am interviewing a lot, so I have to prep for them. I don’t have much time to mull this over at this point. I am on autopilot, whether I like or not (and I don’t), but I have’t found anything else that could pay the bills and afford me a decent life style, so I have to learn, learn, learn. For the next 18-24 months I will be learning a lot of new technology and not just memorizing it, but actually understand it and implementing it. I am hoping that it will help me become a really good IT pro who makes crazy money. It’s not about the money, it’s about proving to myself that I can, it’s about proving to others that I can, it’s about not having to worry about money, it’s about being able to have a life style that will allow me to travel and eventually work remotely. Until then I have to study 24/7. I am not sure how it will all end up. I might die, I might succeed, I might go crazy from being lonely, but I am not going to give up my dream of becoming a total IT pro with many different technologies. And whatever else happens, I’ll deal with then. I am throwing in the towel for all the bad stuff and good stuff, and just concentrating on studying, health, self compassion, and my friends and family (those who actually deserve it).

Thank you again for all the advice. I will be posting\asking more questions in other subjects, so you won’t miss me too much.