Dear anita,

today was a messy day at work. I made a lot of mistakes. It would be nice if I was just a relaxed, calm person, but I become very nervous and hectic and then things go wrong. I want to help,I want to do the right thing, but then it often turns out to be the wrong thing. This job is probably not very fitting for me. With lots of contact to people and them coming to me asking me questions, it is something that makes me very nervous and insecure and then I make mistakes. For some part of the day I did well, but then I failed again.

When we talked about going slowly, it also applies to such situations. If only I could just stop myself and calm down a bit before acting. But most of the time, the more insecure I become, the more I want to make things right, and the quicker I make mistakes.

Well, right now I cannot do much about it. So best to think of something else.

Tomorrow I want to work on my drawings and maybe do something like yoga or going for a walk.

Good night!