Dear Javier:

You mentioned the term one step forward, two steps back. Another term I thought of as I read about your recent vesicular rashes and hospital visit is: when it pours, it rains. When your mind/ body suffers distress for too long, more and more symptoms and consequences of distress are piled on. This is how the pouring of the rain feels like, to you, most recently: “got rashes all over my body.. high fever.. body itches all over.. negative thoughts.. morning depressions are extreme.. ‘dead’ inside.. bad health, brain is on over-drive with negative thoughts.. anticipatory anxiety. Everything scares me”.

The first topic of my post of two days ago, is about significantly slowing down the pouring of the rain as quickly and as responsibly as possible, so that you are able able to think clearly enough and choose thoughtfully enough about what is best for you to do next. I hope the rain slows down for you soon. I wish you well.

anita