What you said previously suggested that you felt fundamentally different

I am, and i already said why above, my life is a fair example of that difference, i think differently from the people around me, i have different beliefs and values

 nor are you sentenced to misery forever

my personality, the combination of beliefs and values and goals and dreams and feelings suggest that i won’t live a happy life, i already have proof, its the stubbornness to live Independently and not caring enough to what other people think and do, how can i achieve my basic needs, if i don’t have either the will to do so nor that i value you them ? and how im gonna achieve my basic needs if i live in a place most people won’t understand me? how can i achieve Communication or basic understanding, is it really worth it then ? if i can’t have the basics ? not because im different, but because i was unlucky to born this way.

that you’re created in a wrong way

i was, i believe the right way is to accept society ideas, the happiest people is the people who follow their programming, a programming that can fit with society standards, and most people are born this way, the proof is the world around you, there isn’t much people that value what i value, that think how i think, this because all their thoughts and beliefs were handed to them by society, the only different is that i refuse to take them, and this doesn’t make me wrong or bad, just unlucky that i have such programming

If you would like to talk more about how your mother took the easy way, you’re welcome.

i was just saying its the something i inherited, that i don’t blame myself for such goal or belief, it is what it is, and i really don’t care about my mother to talk about her

You can

prove it.

if you’re completely honest with yourself and admit your legitimate need for love, without blaming yourself

maybe i implied in some way that i blame myself, i don’t, again i don’t believe in freewill, there is nothing i did wrong, nothing i gained, nothing i do or did gonna be bad or good, because its all a part of my programming, can i change such programming? maybe, do i want to ? no, why ? because its a part of my programming not wanting to change, there is no blame here,

all this, suggest that i at least think differently from you, and you might have a trouble understanding

that it’s wrong for you to need it.

it is wrong, not by what you mean by the word, but wrong in which i can’t satisfy it in real life, i obviously can’t have another mother, and can’t be a baby again, i can find a middle ground, where i can have some of this love, but what do i have to do ? change my whole personality and values and goals, will it matter then? when i completely change myself in order to be loved knowing no one would’ve loved me when i actually loved myself, if my middle ground is to love myself, i accept such middle ground, at least i won’t depend on external, people, but it won’t satisfy my desired love, the love that i want, thus its the wrong desire, because i can’t satisfy it

You believe that you can only receive love if you change to fit the society’s expectations

that believe is based on evidence and a lot of observation