there is a sense of strength there, you find comfort and pride

i really don’t know why i value Individuality so much, maybe its an ego thing, a sense that like that im superior, although i do feel im somehow superior, because i created my own values and beliefs based on my personality, which made life much easier for me, but i do feel less sometimes, because how might people see me, “lazy” “pathetic” “weak” “not a man”, actually seeing me as a baby didn’t hurt much compared to those, although it kinda did hurt me, especially coming from you.

An animal will give in to society

sometimes out of self hatred, i wanna do exactly that, just give in and accept life as it was meant to be, but i know i can’t, my mind won’t allow it, i will hate myself so much

If you stand up to society, unchanging- you will suffer for a  higher cause

while yes i do have this type of thinking, to accept loneliness and misery for this cause, sometimes i feel its pointless, this is why i think of suicide, whenever i think of suicide, i never have an external cause, its always internal one, knowing that i won’t have love, just because i think this way, sometimes i wish that i was what they want (females i mean), but then i think i won’t be special, like i am now, how i think and how i act, it is special, maybe bad but still special, sometimes i feel this is just superiority complex and the need to escape responsibility and taking the easy way, but i ask the question, why do i make a whole new philosophy values and beliefs just to escape such responsibility, and after a lot of thinking, it seem that following society is actually easier, accepting such responsibility after all is the easy way, i see how people living, go to work, do something fun and sleep and repeat, some are lucky to have a work they enjoy, some are not, but believe me when i say, going against everybody isn’t the easy way, i feel so alone and distant from everybody, and my basic needs is now harder to achieve , because im so different

changing=self-destructing

i really couldn’t explain it any better, your analysis amazed me, really i was laughing because i myself couldn’t see some of the things you said

it is Everybody. Including me

i actually have a word for such people, normies, although i use my own definition of the word, a normie is a person who have normal values and beliefs and thoughts about the world,  one of the normie quality is that they can’t understand me, who i am, they can’t understand where im coming from, you proved otherwise, its more of a label to people that i shouldn’t waste my time with, i know it makes me distant, but i can’t think its untrue sadly

I am Society to. I am Everybody

i do agree, that even my thoughts and beliefs and values is a part of society, im more of a castaway, the unwanted by society, but i know that society made me, and i try to have no ego, that im like that, no pride, no saddens  because im only what they produce, a combination of luck and environment

to be loved by Society/ any person in the Everybody category

luckily there is people like you, that doesn’t fall in this category, i actually have a female friend who also think this way, who i consider a “birdman” thats what i call someone who isn’t a norime, its based on my fav film

I see you as more than the baby I mention before

im actually glad that you see more of me, it kinda hurts to see yourself this way out of people eyes, although i understand and agree that my values and beliefs do sound like a baby, maybe i am just a baby after all, i can’t help it though

 I am surprised I didn’t see it before.. how strange. I guess societal judgment is indeed very strong- you hear about a person refusing to work, one automatically gets judgmental

i think its on me, my way of using words and the stuff i said, makes it impossible for you to see otherwise, as i said, i was very sad and different, for me i feel like a mouth and i change a lot, my ideas and the way i think, i guess im growing bit by bit, maybe for the bad, maybe for the good