If you are having suicidal ideations, you need to tell a professional. Your meds may need adjusted too. I was on zoloft in my teens and it gave me suicidal ideations. I got off it. I’m not saying that’s what happened to you, just that’s it’s a possibility with some antidepressents.

When you feel down, try to meditate on what is going on in your soul. Ask yourself, “What do I really need?” Write this down. Then share it with someone, a safe space. Try surrendering, letting go rather than giving up. There’s a whole life ahead of you to be lived that’s worthwhile. When we are suicidal, we have tunnel vision. We can’t see outside of our feelings-that’s called emotional reasoning. Even if you do not have CBT in your therapy where you live, you can look up many resources online and use with your negative thought patterns.

If things do not get better, you might want to ask for help and even admit yourself to a psych ward. It’s okay to need help. It’s not okay to ignore it. We can only do so much for you here. We do not have all the answers. We cannot make your pain go away with one message of support. You must ask for help in your area. If something doesn’t work, keep trying. The point is to be vulnerable with yourself and open about your emotions. That will ease you.

I am hoping you hold on. Your life matters.