Javier

i am seeing that you lack coping skills. You are trying to solve everything when the truth is “don’t try to calm the storm. Calm yourself. The storm will pass.” Meditation will be extremely useful to you.

you are outside your window of tolerance for negative feelings. You are blaming yourself for your moms upset. That is out of your control. But you are being highly proactive.

you need to stop panicking and worrying about every little thing. On top of trauma and depression you are catastrophizing and panicking over not feeling well. This is perpetuating the problem.

ive given you homework. If you want more read Tiny Beautiful Things by Cheryl Strayed and Try Softer by Aundi Kolber. They are self help books that will change your life.

i want you to google coping skills for ptsd and depression. Search Facebook groups for emotional support groups.

Ground yourself in the present when you start to feel bad. Focus only on your senses things you smell see taste touch and hear until you calm down. Try box breathing too. Inhale for four counts, hold for four counts, exhale for four counts then repeat.

you asked me to pray for you. I have been. Your mom is experiencing codependent emotions with you. All you can do is reassure her. You can’t control her response. As you’ll find in Victor Frankl writing you can only control yourself. The one choice you have in any situation is your attitude.

im praying for you. I feel called to answer you. I’m trying to keep you alive but can only do so much. You’ve shown me you want to live and are fighting for yourself. Give the rest to God. I’ll be here as you navigate this.