Dear Don,

Thanks for your patience.

I am 23. I hope from the previous messages on this forum you are able to see the complexity and the several challenges I was facing. I don’t think the problem for me was recognizing my situation, but accepting my situation. I also think the number of repressed/suppressed emotions that I had for the extended parts of my life (it does cover a decade of me isolating myself, but I was not aware I was doing it until last year) made it hard for me to accept things. But hey, we all continue to learn new things 🙂

Yes, I have “gone” from others’ life too, but because I was always on the ending side of writing the last letter, email, or message it felt predominantly that people are leaving me.

I think I can see life as a tree better now. Although I’ve been moving/traveling a lot for the past 20 years it still was one of the hardest things to accept. I do not if you can relate and now I am specifically talking in the context of moving/traveling. I used to feel “homeless” and feel little that I belonged anywhere. It was more like I am from “between countries/cultures.” As of the end of last year, the belonging part updated to “I feel like I belong everywhere, but thus nowhere.” Now, I say that “home is within me; it is all the places, people, and memories I have made across the world.”

Kibou