Anita,

Thank you so much for being so insightful. I appreciate all of your feedback and your efforts to have people see things in their life a little clearer.

I think you’re definitely correct. I have adapted to overlooking dishonesty, and I’m sure it would be different if I didn’t have such a positive outlook on everything. In addition to just being positive I really prefer to avoid conflict 100% of the time. I find it’s easier to just let things go and sweep it under the rug more often than not. I so badly wish I was a bold can-say-anything type of person but that was not written in the stars for me. I honestly feel like I’m more than content with my current circumstances despite the major dishonesty going on. Sounds crazy doesn’t it? Being dishonest in my own way really made it okay for me even though this is not okay for sure. I knew from the start I would miss being single from time to time at least, and I also knew that K is someone who really enjoyed being single on the same level as me. The big thing bothering me is the confusion I’ve been left with. Does K actively want to be single? Would he like an open relationship? Does he love me so much but just wish I looked a little different? So hard to know the truth when even while putting options on the table for him he has chosen me. I am so carefree that any of the options he could choose would be totally okay with me. Even if we decided not to be together anymore, I have all the faith in the world that we would actually be good friends and have a good time together as single people, even associating or flirting with other people in the same environment. So long as we ended it on semi decent terms at least of course. That’s the least likely scenario to happen as I really do think I’d rather continue to keep doing what we’re doing. I recognize that I need to continue to grow as a person and work on my communication. It’s a tough work in progress.

Thank you again, Anita!