No problem I’ve just read through, my thoughts are that it is probably just timing if you feel everything else is going well, I think with something as big as that it’s better to hint at it at first to feel out whether or not its something you both feel your ready for, having said that there’s no need for any of your old coping mechanisms to resurface, look how much stronger and more knowledgeable you are with everything now than before in the past, I know it’s easier said than done because in your mind it’s something you really wanted but the best thing to do would be act cool about it and let the seed grow that’s been planted, he may feel he’s really happy as things are and doesn’t want to disrupt that so remember it could be a fear from changing something he’s really happy with at the moment, I would suggest forget about it for now and enjoy things as they are and let him make any suggestion about that next step when he’s ready, in reasonable time of course, I’m not saying wait years! But honestly don’t overthink it too much and their is definitely no need for any sort of self destruct mode, just try get back to how things were and enjoy it 🙂

Just read your post Rhaenys, I’m sorry you’ve had those moments of feeling that way, I too sometimes get a pinch of envy when a close friend becomes involved with a new romantic interest when your still healing and wanting to move on, it’s only natural. I would say being 34 and worried about hitting 40 without meeting someone who you connect with is unlikely, 6 years is a long time! And as you said your summer is approaching and restrictions are getting relaxed so more social environments will become available, I have every faith you will find someone who is right for you 🙂

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