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Dear zeeza
What keeps me going is the science of building new neuron
What keeps me going is apathy, apathy saved my life, and i wish it didn’t cause it came with a very high price
It is hard to believe anyone cares when all you knew was what was dealt to you at a young age
I don’t need to believe, no one cares, even i don’t
do you like animals?
No, even if i did they are expensive where i live (there is no adoption)
Does looking at the sky for clouds and stars?
No, it feels like if i didn’t it wouldn’t make any difference
if I could go back in time 10 years ago when I was in my darkest hour of wanting to escape
If i could go back before i developed apathy to live, when i cared about life and myself, and wanted to do it, i would tell myself “do it”, this isn’t my darkest days, no, these are one of the best, it actually can’t get any better, this is as good as it gets, and that’s a fact.
relatable to you
Nothing relatable from what I’ve seen, i live in a world you can’t even imagine
because sometimes we need alternative evidence to see differently
People are no longer a soild evidence to see differently, since most of them don’t have what i have, and im not talking about depression, im taking about attitude, a whole package, this right here is rare