Dearest Anita,

Thank you so much for checking up on me and im so sorry for getting back to just right now. i was and still am not doing so well, i saw him face to face several times he said some ugly words about the fact that he doubts any guy would want to be with me with my mentality ( not wanting to marry right now and join him at the states because im still not ready and we agreed on marrying at 27 and so i arranged my career and studies to happen prior to that time- i asked him to continue doing our long distance relationship like any other couple but he said that this is not love and im not putting him as a priority then) , he denied everything i have ever done to him and i had to explain everything i did for him and for this relationship for him to finally comprehend some of it. we ended up apologizing , decided to break it off and stay friends, he went back to the states and i stayed at my hometown , he started texting and checking up continuously even after i deleted my social media accounts but now i stopped responding and its been complete silence for the last 4 days and i feel guilty because i agreed to stay friends and see where the future might take us both but it seems like right now i cant do it and im also always thinking of him if he is doing ok or if he is hurting alone away from his family and friends while im here with my family , add to that the fact that i have the confusion of whether this break up was right or i exaggerate things, now the single life looks scary as the dating seen completely sucks “as i have been hearing from friends and family when it comes to their experiences”…

natie

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