Dear TeaK,

Thank you once again for ur reply.

I’m still on progress on creating a positive image for myself and also for the exercise.

There is something i’m curious about… yesterday before i sleep i have thoughts of.. what if i made a different decision in the past…

Like what if i stopped chatting with that girl in my uni days… could i have a better uni life? Or maybe my current obsession of her might perished right now if i took that decision in the past? It’s not that im regretting what i did in the past (or maybe a little)…. do u think everything that happens now is already fated this way?

Also there’s something i wanna ask,

Why do some people said being a teen is better than being an adult?

Tbh i dont really like my teen days….

In my highschool days, most students are all busy comparing “who has the most friends”, “who’s more popular”, “who has the most crush”, “are u invited in this group of people”….. i dont like that period of my life, it forces me to adapt and be likeable so that i can be like them.

Then in my uni days, those period of “friends” still exists but not too much…. like they still focus on having lots of friends but are also focused on their path after uni… like people started to become individualistic.

Then after graduating and entering the working period, people started to leave the “group of friends” and become more individualistic… i really like it this way…. like it wont force me to adapt and care about other people….

Like as an adult when we have less friends, it’s labelled as “normal”. Although yes, there’s more struggles in life when we become adult.

I cant wait till i reach the moment when i have my own family…. and what i only care is “the group of people i love most”, and it’s normal to have few friends, and i what i do everyday (working) is only for the group of people i love.

It’s because that i dont really like making friends, and most people at my age are all still trying to make friends with lots of people… i wanna pass this period as soon as possible…

Do u think it’s weird for me to think this way?