when i had just had an abortion and was dealing with past trauma of my ex abusing me and my mom dying it had all boiled up and i told him i didnt love him. not because i didnt but i felt he deserved better. hes a person who doesnt trust many so after that hes never been the same. and almost everytime he makes a mistake it almost always boils down to him saying if i never broke up with him wed still be happy. i keep forgiving him. but im tired of him not making me a priority. being sneaky. lying etc… i do love him and want it to work out but as soon as we make plans to talk or hangout he “forgets” or something happens

i dont want to have to give him the cold shpulder and completely turn my back on all our history but im tired of chasing a grown man around. hes not a bad person but he only really sees things on surface level and never really tries to understand. and i dont like that..

also i was very close w his family and now all of a sudden i havent been there in weeks. id feel stupid to even show my face there.. i miss him but im done being so worked up allll the time. im an over thinker so sorry if this is all over the place thanks 4 responding :,(