Anita,

I am sorry that I keep going back to this topic.  I know that I have a lot of things in my life that I should be greatful for.  I’m aware that I have a lot to offer someone and I’m a good person.  I know that when you chose a person with red flags what you get is…exactly what I got.

I think that part of my problem is the wiring in my brain.  The thought of rejection, or someone not liking me, I think affects me more than most.

There is a trend with men if you look through my posts.  Crappy guys that were bad to begin with.  I tried to have something with them romantically and in the end I cried and was anxiety ridden.  A mess really.

I feel bad about myself and don’t like myself.  This is the core of all my problems I know.  I’ve known that for a long time and I think I picked other things-unhealthy things- to focus on instead because, well they were easier.  So I’m hoping through counseling to learn some way to get better with this.  If I don’t I’m going to be texting you with the same issues only it’s a different name for the guy in 2 months.

Lindsey