Dear TeaK,

Thank you once again for ur reply.

“You said you would do some jogging around the block. Is it possible at the moment (with regard to covid)? If not, try to exercise in your room, or in your garden…“

= Few days ago i tried jogging around the block, but sometimes people bring their dogs for a walk (due to lockdown and everyone stayed at home)… so i think it’s too dangerous for me to go out from my house… in the garden i could disturb my dad who usually take care of his plants there…

I guess the only way is in my room…. My motivation is actually to make my body more buff as right now im so thin (im not only short but also thin)… but to be buff quickly i need to go to the gym for the equipments but right now due to lockdown i cant…. So i should just exercise in my room to make my body sweat?

“Your thoughts are similar as before, you’ve already expressed once that you see this girl as a rival, or that you’re jealous because she’s a girl and as such, has an easy task to find boys, whereas you as a boy don’t have such an easy task to find girls, etc. You also talked about having a shortage of girls in your city and mentioned other issues that you see as potential obstacles for you. This is all your mind overthinking and keeping you stuck.“

= I see, so this is still me overthinking and stuck in the same thing again… i thought that’s a different situation but turns out it’s the similar thoughts as before…

I’ll try to continue with the 3 advices you give me…

On the other hand, i’d like to ask….

I’m trying to improve every parts of me now… i’m thinking of using braces, as u know my personality do u think it’s worth it for me?

One of my front teeth’s position is in backwards… so everytime i smile… in the picture it’ll look like i have a missing tooth. I’m a person who tends to complain.. i’m worried that if i get braces later on i’ll complain… because if i really use braces i think the dentist will sacrifice that one tooth (backwards position) to be able to place the braces…. So if i stop before finishing my braces completely… i’ll have a missing front tooth…. And i believe if i stop midway like that.. and i have a missing tooth.. it’ll cause myself a lot of anxiety later on…

I used to ask my mother in the past… she told me it’s not worth it to sacrifice a tooth as it’s precious… and also due to my “difficulties” in eating.. she said i’d have difficulties eating later on….

But right now ofc due to lockdown i cant go to the dentist… this is only one of my plan that i can think about to improve myself along with making my body more buff…Idk why but i really wanna make myself “at least” more attractive.