Anita,

I feel like I made a mistake. I’m back to the Tuesday after I broke up with him to an extent.   Yes I went to the pool last weekend and this past weekend.  I enjoy it and also doing things and being around my kids. But he just does not go away.  I feel like I will go crazy waiting for him to call.

I believe you are right that he does not follow through with his actions. I do believe he means what he says from what has happened when we are together but for some reason-personality, laziness?  it just doesn’t happen like it should with his actions.  It really sucks for me that I cannot explain myself to him.  I have all these thoughts and maybe I will write a letter.

I don’t understand why this happened and why I could not just ignore his texts.  I feel like I cannot deal with this again. There is no way.

lindsey