Anita,

Does my brain shut off during this situation with “S?”  I cannot understand why I would put my self in a situation like this that is so unhealthy for me.  I do not want to say he is a bad person but…he’s not good.

This is my fault really.  I’m so worried about people noticing that I have mental health issues when they meet me and get to know me.  I don’t think it’s about that.  I think that my issues with self worth and self esteem make them wonder if I have issues.

I have got to get myself together.   yesterday was just embarrassing and self destructive.  I blocked him on all social media.  I deleted his number but probably should have blocked it.  Which I will when he decides to text.  I have a really good male friend and so far he has been right about everything and I have not listened to him.  “S” will reach out at some point.  And when  he does I will not answer and then block the number.  My friend stated he reaches out to me because he has access and is making sure he still has access.  He does have feelings but they are all on his terms and he is happy with the situation.  He doesn’t care about my feelings or my happiness.  This really does not read as a good person.

Lindsey