Dear TeaK,

Thank you once again for ur reply.

“Well, if you can’t go abroad, and you don’t really prefer studying that much either, how about moving into your own apartment and taking on a part-time job away from your parents’ company? So to stay in your home town, or your home country, but try to be as independent from your parents as possible? That way you can start practicing your cooking skills too, and in general, learn to become more independent.

Do you think that would be possible? It can be like an experiment, perhaps for 3 or 6 months, just so you get a feel of how it is to live independently and take care of yourself.“

= Yes, i think it’s a good suggestion…but i dont think it’s possible, as if it’s still around within my home country.. i prefer to be at my hometown.

What do u think if i took masters right now? Do u think it’ll be a waste for me, because the lessons will be conducted online… and i’ll attend the class at my room. Do u think i’m rushing myself? As my intention for masters is to use it as a possibility to live independently. But i think i can feel more useful than doing my “easy tasks” right now 🙂.

If not masters, i also think of learning chinese language… the duration is shorter than masters which only for a year… but the class will also be conducted online.

However, i also have a feeling that taking online class and studying in my room might be a waste of money….

There’s also my friend right now who graduated on the same time as me… and she’s creating her own business right now…. I’m so confused….
I think i’m comparing myself with each of my friends…. And i felt left behind. e.g. this friend is creating her own business, this friend is taking masters…
Like when i saw the one who creates her own business i feel like i dont wanna lose out… i wanna help my parents business, then i saw the one who took masters… i feel like i wanna be like them… having a chance to live independently…. I’m losing my way right now…It’s so tiring, it’s like i wanna live my life perfectly 🙂