Anita,

There is an obsessive component in a lot of my posts that I write to you.  And it’s about  men.  My brain seems to got back and forth and around-erratic really when talking to you about them and my anxiety with their behavior.  It is my brain not wanting to work on what I need- self love and self worth.  I think because it’s easier? But what I go through with my anxiety is harder.

This man “S” is not a good man and has not treated me well at all.  I sit back and I am embarrassed. I believe now that I have some significant trauma possibly from my marriage.  I have not discussed in depth this trauma or how it has effected me. It’s troubling because it seems to be an every day battle with my thoughts.  There is this short video on a social media app called Tic Toc about moving on.  I listen to it a few times a day.

Why do I get side tracked when I have 2 great kids and a pretty amazing dog.  Why do relationships and dating men who are unhealthy take over my life at different times?  It’s almost like an addiction.

Lindsey