Dear TeaK,

Thank you once again for ur reply.

“What made you change your mind regarding Masters and everything else? Is it just the current situation with covid or something else?“

= Because taking masters won’t be relevant for my family’s business… i’ve discussed it with my parents… because mostly uni courses are only theories…

I wanna take masters because i wanna feel an accomplishment for myself as there are only few who took masters… and also as an opportunity to live away alone for a few years…

I still wanna live away alone, and finally yesterday I asked my parents if i can go to china for language learning and they agree with it, because chinese (mandarin) language will be relevant for our business… and right now i’m not good at it.. although i’m taking a mandarin course in my city right now (online class).

But i can only go to china once the lockdown and situation is better….
So yeah it is my plan right now…

I feel so delighted that i can explore new places later on… and i can meet new people there… although the language course is only 2 years… and then i’ll go back to my home country and help my family’s business again…

I just hope i won’t be too old when i go there to study…

I hope this will be a right choice for me to go and study there…. Because i can feel unease if suddenly i saw one of my friends who’s single right now (he lives in my city) suddenly has a girlfriend, and when i came back to my city later on i’m the only one left single 😂, i don’t want that.

And also, idk what happened to me but i feel like i’m more of becoming a lone wolf right now… ever since i broke up with that “girl”, i dont feel like talking to any of my friends… and since it’s lockdown right now i dont feel like there’s any purpose in contacting them…. I feel like i only need to talk with my family in my house….
What if i dont wanna contact my friends when i’m in china later on 🙂, right now tbh i’m feeling so free that no one texted me at all….

I even feel regret, i feel like i should’ve been this kind of person in uni back then… i should’ve focused only on my grades… and dont care about any of my friends… because my grades in uni arent good, just barely passed…. Although good grades are only relevant if i want to apply for jobs… but it’s still personal satisfaction 🙂