Dear Lindsey:

Did I watch The Never Ending Story, the original, 1984? Only a thousand times! This movie inspired me to leave my country of origin on a journey across Europe and all the way to the United States, alone.. just like the child warrior in the movie, Atreyu, only I didn’t get to have Falkor, the lucky dragon!

“Do you think someone like me who uses men/relationship to forget other issues over time creates an addiction?   Like my brain is wired for anxiety and it wants more and more (addiction) too“- I think that your brain wants calm, and it tries to get calm in ways that create more anxiety. It gets stuck in doing what feels right.. but isn’t right.

“I start to want to reach out to him.  I just kind of try and get through the feeling“- you reach out for love.. reach out to a man who will not give you love because he is otherwise occupied.

“It’s pretty lonely now. How do you just get self-esteem and self worth enough to not have anxiety in a relationship?“- watch the never ending story again, there is so much more to it than the swamp of depression!

“I also have a lot of issues with my body. I’ve never really talked about it“- you can talk about it with me, if you want to. We can even compare body issues.. I can talk about those with you!

anita