Dear TeaK,

Thank you once again for ur reply.

Sorry for skipping what we discussed above.

Yesterday i attend my high school friends gathering…. And long story short we took a pic… and in that pic i look so short, more shorter than usual… because in most pics i always find a good angle for me to look taller but in yesterday’s situation i failed. I look really really short, and the girl beside me was the same height as me and the boy beside me was 15cm taller than me…. It couldnt have gotten any worse.

And yet again because there is one of my high school friend who attends the same uni as me, we have almost the same mutuals on social media… and she posted that pic.

It really triggers me, and i scream last night…. I really feel like i wanna cry… why do people have to keep embarrassing me like this.

Like really what should i do right, i dont even do anything to embarrass myself and it really cause something to trigger my self-issues.

I just got better a few days ago, and once again this happened… i even think that i should isolate myself completely to avoid getting embarrassed, i wont go to any of my friends reunion anymore… i’ll just hangout with my really really closest friend.

I apologize if this is something we’ve discussed before, but i’m so sad right now… like why is this world really hard on me, i tried my best to be happy but i never get that…. I’ve been given to many self issues and i really cant take it anymore.
What should i do then, stop existing from social media? Isolating myself from friends?
It’s really hard for me to go forward in life, right now i’m trying to contain my sanity… because if i dont, i really might scream and try to beat myself up again (like really trying to punch something, like the wall or my bed).