Dear Murtaza,

I accept your apology. It’s good you see that apathy serves to numb your strong feelings: both your desire to connect and love/be loved, and your hate and anger for not having what you need and want.

i really think i should just stay alone, its just not worth it for both parties, i should’ve never post here, or anywhere on the Internet, there were few times were good things come from this, but they end quickly, and don’t feel like anything, so why even bother.

I am not sorry we’ve communicated, although it was challenging. You don’t need to give up trying to connect with people, though you’d need to do it from a different mindset. For example, be more open-minded and less sure that life isn’t worth living.

I am glad you apologized, it shows you care and you are opening your heart. I appreciate that.