Dear TeaK,

I dont know if this sounds repeating the same statement or not (if i sound repeating the same statement you can just skip it): i know those who know me know that i’m short, but they didnt know how is my height compared to those girls in the pic… and my height with those girls in that pic are the same due to them wearing heels…. I can only hope that people who saw that pic understands that my height and them are the same is due to them wearing heels…

One of the reasons why i like camouflaging my height is because it did work… like some of my friends used to state that i’m slightly taller than her.. whereas im actually more or less the same than her, i know that they know im short… but they still think that im taller than most girls (i dont know how to explain it clearly)…

I ask one of my friends who know about my insecurity on what should i do with this situation, he told me the only way is to post a pic that i look taller than most girls, so that people will think i’m not really that short.

I only can hope that they dont analyze too much when i post a pic of me and my friends on december later on… I know most people would say no one would really analyze that much and it’s just me overthinking…. but there is, there really is a person like that…. My ex crush is like that, it’s insane….

I’ve been trying to keep my sanity for the past few days… i told myself anything to keep me calm, saying that i’m not worthless, this situation is harmless, taking a deep breath…. I guess it gonna took a while till i can heal from this situation….

What also drives me crazy is that everything i did this year was a mess: how my friends posted a goofy pic of mine on my birthday, i posted my graduation pic like i had no friends and now this problem….(although i have calm myself for the previous problems)

Tbh when im at the office i dont think as much as when im in my room at night…. I guess this is the reason why most people dont wanna stay too long being alone at their room… it causes much more overthinking than usual, but at night i have no choice but to be at my room right………

I just stated everything above according based on what im thinking right now…. I just hope i can recover soon….usually as time passes, i’ll eventually recover sooner or later…