dear teak,

thank you for your kind reply. Although I haven’t posted a follow up message I have come back to this forum often and re-read your message often, heeding your advice.

Growing up, she only physically abused me and was what seemed like a ‘loving mother’ toward my siblings. I was outcasted the moment my sister was born. Growing up, the rest of my family slept together in one bed in the master bedroom while I had to sleep in my own seperate room. I was not allowed to share a room with my sister, even though it was what the governement subsidized home specified, I was so lonely. I listened to the radio every night to keep myself distracted from the lonliness.

I have not contacted the ‘monster’ since last mother’s day. But I have been in touch with my sister. I’m back here on this forum today because I’m in dire need of support. I’m reaching out to find strength.