I have 5 children with 3 mothers. 2 daughters with my first wife my son from his mother and 2 further daughters with my second wife. After I parted from my first serious girlfriend I met my first wife which started off as purely sexual she was 16 and I was 20 she fell pregnant and we were the talk of the village in which we live the baby was terminated but not long after with both of us feeling pretty dreadful and wanting to put things right we found ourselves having another child. As I write this now I don’t think I have ever stopped to think of what any of that actually meant at the time or the implications of my actions. it was my life and it was being played out in public in our local pub alcohol assisted I was not mature enough to deal with any of it. I  I don’t know where to stop with this it seems I’m writing my life story.