Hugs Angel. I have had a relationship just this.  I expect he will show up in your  life again at some point.  PLEASE don’t go back to him no matter what he says or does.

Its not you.  It’s him. Trying to figure these types out can drive you crazy.  I was with the similar person around 6 years, and he even gave me a engagement ring or rather he told me it was an engagement ring.

I learnt a few weeks ago that he passed in 2018.  I am much older women than you – early 60s and he was about 4 years older than I am.  He was in a relationship when he passed.

Best to just move on.