Dear Anita and Helacat, you are both such amazingly strong and aelf-insightful women.  It’s too difficult for me to speak much of actual incidents of abuse.  Firstly, where could I start. It went back as far as I can remember and it’s triggering for me to talk about.

I can though talk about my emotions by creating psychological distance from the events which happened over many years which entailed physical, verbal, emotional and psychological abuse. It shaped me to become a person who always felt that I was not as good as or as deserving as others. Within my own family, I believe I was the bottom of the wrung child.  I know I was unplanned and unwanted (I was told that on numerous occasions).

Now I have entered my senior years, and who knows how long any of us have left. There is nothing I can do about my family or my life. My relationships resembled my family life in some ways.  Thank God I live alone now where there is peace and I can choose who comes into my life and who doesn’t. XXX