@anita

Thank you for your understanding!

I hope that connecting and expressing my anger will improve my mental health. If it help with chronic pain that would be a bonus.

In my mind, this is all very present at the moment. If that makes sense? I’m referring to my last memories of her as a teenager vs my memories of her when I was a child. As I said, there were dramatic differences between how she used to be compared to what she became. As a child I saw her as a monster and was terrified of her. In my last memory of her in person, she didn’t inspire fear, instead I pitied her.