Hi Anita,

Thank you. Yes, I’d say I need help. I’ve never had a successful dating life. As a healthier woman atleast. It has always been codependency running my relationships. I get really clingy fast. But I have been working on this.

While in touch with my ex I though I wouldn’t be able to let go. I have thought about the situation many times throughout each day because I miss him but I don’t think I’ll be reaching out again. I feel the ball is in his court. If I truly ever mattered to him than knowing I’m in Florida and wanting to see him should put a fire under him, am I wrong to think that?

As far as not feeling good enough. Well I’ll start with physically. Throughout these last two years I’ve piled on an extra 50 pounds. It doesn’t make me feel good. I think in most other areas I’m confident. Like cooking, cleaning, being a good woman. But I fear dating when I don’t have a true friend circle to rely on but I do have you and some other wise people I’ve met so I have to remind myself that. But I fear someone manipulating me again or many of my unhealthy skills to come up but I guess I can’t work on them until I’m in action? I don’t feel ready to date. Like I need to more whole but how long can a girl wait?