Dear anita

1) I do have more or less a daily routine. Recently I also began a little side job to keep occupied.

2)

(a) The attitude change towards these suffocating feelings is a good idea. To train to think differently from these feelings can possibly lessen that discomfort.

(b) I tried that kind of methode a few times already. It still needs more time to feel a change.

Anger is a part of the suffocating feelings. But I don’t feel like I will reject your suggestions. It is more the feelings at the moment to be behind in life and the stress about the study (which by the way I can see clearer what I want to do but fear a lot to take the jump into the cold water). And also to see others as mistrusting human being, who didn’t mean good with me (Sometimes I interprete behaviours of others very negatively even if it is neutral or there are no real intention behind). Therefore I feel rejected and lonely. Than I overthink and the suffocating feelings are very present.

Sesha