Yes I didn’t, because I hadn’t ever experienced that kind of chemistry or love with anyone before. So I excused his behavior as immaturity and thought in the end love concours all.  But off course I was wrong.  I know there’s no going back to him after this.  Whether he was honest or not it’s over for me.  In the end he didn’t love me enough or else we would be together.  The difference between the rest of the times and this time is that I choose to walk away this time.  I could have easily continued whatever this was and kept getting hurt in the process.  I think mentally and physically it was all taking a toll on me. Where I realized it’s always been me fighting and trying and I realized that it will never work unless two people put in equal effort.   Even after realizing all this, it still hurts very much. I cry myself to sleep most nights. I told myself I would try and date other people and move on but I find it so hard to even keep up a conversation because I lose interest. I think about him everyday. I decided to work on myself but also can’t find the strength to do that.  I had low self esteem to begin with but after hearing him make that comment and the possibility of his love not being true is eating me up inside. I don’t know what to do or how to make things better for myself.