I do not deny that it is possible to have a meaningful connection online, but I think general audience of dating services and format of conversation doesn’t encourage it.

I don’t think I’ve seen a profile where a girl would write anything at all. They would just upload photos and wait for messages. Nothing wrong with that – it works for them, guys do write them. Doesn’t really work for me. They say guys care only for looks, but I don’t see how that can be true.

It just seems to me that getting rejected by ten girls in real life is a more enjoyable experience than sending similiar messages into the void and waiting days for an answer.

I don’t think I expect some gender to be more vile than the other. My conditioning was that having sexual desire toward women is bad, and letting anyone know it is criminal offence.

I remember there was this time when I was in a better mental state and I asked a girl out. It turned out she was married, but she took her time to thank me and to let me know that she was flattered and grateful. She seemed sincere.

My mind won’t register such information. Sexual desire is malignant intent, and expressing it to anyone is unspeakable crime. Sounds ridiculous and silly, but to me it’s a fundamental truth about the world.

I’m rambling too much. Please do not mind it. I think it’s pretty obvious that such issues are not to be solved by someone outside my head, and have to be found and confronted by myself.