Hi Felix

You say that you have nothing to show for your life then list a lot of good things that you have going for you. Your dog, your friends, your family, you’re not poor, you survived cancer.

You describe yourself as intelligent then suggest that other people aren’t special or bright and they haven’t done anything, yet things are much easier for them.

Life is rarely what it seems. We all experience mental health issues, relationships ending, illness, abuse, redundancy, debt, death… The list goes on and on. Just because someone seems like they have an easy life, doesn’t mean that they necessarily do. I think I’ve only met one person who had a perfect life and they were 16 at the time. I’m sure their life now includes trauma, the same as everyone else’s.

Other than being single and awaiting a new hob, it sounds like your life is going pretty well. Dating can take some time to meet the right person. People do say that dating gets worse as you get older.

I would suggest that some of the feelings that you are experiencing could be due to depression. You may wish to liaise with mental health professionals. Otherwise, practicing compassion and gratitude could be beneficial.