Hi Madina

When we avoid something fear of it grows because avoiding it reinforces the idea that we were correct to avoid it.

It sounds like you are very aware of the difficulties you have with relationships and where these difficulties stem from. Working with a therapist may help you move past these issues .

You don’t have to date, if you don’t want to. It seems like you’re putting a lot of pressure on yourself to figure this out now. From my understanding you are currently not attempting to date? Is this correct? When you feel safer and there is someone that you are interested in, I’m sure that things will become clearer.