Thank you, Anita, I hope your days are full of joy and peace. Thanks for your wishes.

I actually am not afraid of the evil eye, the curses, or even bad luck. When to think about it, I even think that I am lucky. Especially these days. I’ve worked on myself and set some boundaries regardless of how challenging it was for me and for some people like my dad and sister always demanding more. I still feel guilty because of those boundaries, but at least, I am kind of used to them right now. I limit my interaction, I realize how I let anybody get in and influence the way I think in the past, and also now. I feel grateful that I have somebody in my life that provides me with the ability to observe myself, and my thought habits without harming me. I’ve realized a lot, even though I am very slow. I still feel that I am at risk with him when something slightly unpleasant happens. I feel like I can be judged, and abandoned. And I feel resentment and jealousy towards people that can act recklessly. Maybe I’ve stressed that before. People can actually react in bad ways, or good ways without being afraid. That’s not fair. However, I’ll be forever working on myself regarding this.

I am still worried that my foreign job thingy since it can risk my relationship, but I’m trying to hold onto my sanity. I just purchased some oils and a perfume bottle to create my own perfume with different types of oil, maybe that can distract me as well.