Hey Anita ,

I’m not really sure what time zone you’re actually in I’m in ny so it’s EST, anyway I love some of the excellent stuff wadded to help myself practice and get prepared. The #Z1- thing As my therapist of 10 years ago told me: when your anger is up, your IQ is down. Anger interrupts and suppresses intelligence, that’s just the way it is.

this is awesome and really does make a huge amount of sense I’ve already tried it and it works. Thank you very much.
so I’m thankful so much for your support. I don’t have friends and you’re right I never feel safe we’ll sometimes I may be calm but I’m always in survival mode right cause that’s how we survive. But I just am really doing my damndest to keep controlling myself and using any mindfulness skills I can use to not let my feelings or anger affect him however I know he senses it he’s a very intelligent kid. Anyway today is my birthday and I have been really blessed with my health and my son I am feeling out of sorts but I’m just really staying connected with this page, reading blogs etc doing everything possible honestly. Anita thank you again your a really great person and I don’t even know you but I can tell that you’re very intuitive and real.  I actually look for those special qualities in a friend because I value and an the same along with brutal honesty and I am a asshole sometimes I can admit that I am far from perfect I call myself perfectly imperfect!! Anyway I got mostly all the paperwork for the meeting. His anxiety issues is exactly why a psychiatrist will be speaking with my kid because he had this one Dr who I almost attacked after he told my boy at the tender age of 7 dad that my kid was going to become a most kids, loser, a truant, he’ll that he’s destined to fail! Oh AND , he’ll  become addicted to drugs than most.   Immediately I jumped over his desk and grabbed his tie I mean I lost it because I’ve never seen such unethical behavior in my life. I saw him the following week and I caught him before he could escape inside his nasty stink office I whispered to him just because you’ve got a degree doesn’t make you intelligent and also it’s a very good thing I don’t smell booze on you and then he reacted immediately and shouted Security they came I dgaf because my son was crying until he fell asleep, I told security that he was a drunk and when he seen my poore baby that he said directly to my child’s face he’s gonna be nothing but a loser I think he was drunk and if you don’t use your breathalyzer on him I’m calling the police on him he in no way has the mental capacity to treat one single soul he’s damaging and hurting ppl that’s dangerous for ppl like my kid and it’s just unacceptable and if he wasn’t immediately placed on leave and then it just kept going so tomorrow girl trust me before he even got a question to ask I’m interviewing him period and especially if they speak about medicine because of the length of a psychiatric history (because my mother was so embarrassed of me), I’ve been had 57 different mental illness diagnoses from the DSM, really I was getting legally high I was bugging cause I didn’t care if I died did anything and everything man I’m just grateful I had standards and morals and values idk where they came from but I’ve always been kind. There’s not enough kindness in today’s whole world. I got mad heart and I’m loyal caring etc girl I trust that you might know where it came from cause my parents weren’t like that at all. Anyway I’ve gotta many baby his favorite dinner. I’ll definitely finished with everything I’ve got ready for the meeting and take your advice and I’m going takee a i screenshot of that quote from your therapist I think it’s wonderful. I’m really almost completely done with everything needed for the meeting however your right an agenda nigh help me not lose my shit. Ok so grit it. Thanks queen!  This is incredible and I am very grateful and thankfuly for your support. Thank you so much and your a truly beautiful soul and I feel lucky we’ve connected. I’m glad I took the risk. Ok goodnight. Lori. 🌹