Dear Anita.

Good afternoon.
I could not sleep well last night again.  Woke up had a coffee and took my dog to the beach.  Today is another beautiful day.
I went shopping, clean my garage…. I just do not want to have any free mind.

I wish I could say I feel much better! But not…
All negative words are here and did not go anywhere.  Thinking positive words did not work.
Processing, thinking, and accepting the fact for a few minutes then, darkness comes back to me.
Why?  If you have this much a complaint about me, tell me.  Seems very kind and nice but behind my back, stubbing me.
Thinking what did I do or what caused this problem?

Recently I found a new therapist and my first session is the week of the 14th.  He was fully booked until December but I asked if there is any open.  I was lucky and my therapist found a space for me.

Do you think writing negative words, and negative feel would help me.  If you could give me any advice, I’d appreciate it.

Starting an eating disorder again would not good sign.  A long time ago, I had high stress and became an eating disorder.  Normally, I have 120 lbs but I became 97 lbs.

I’m very sorry I’m writing so negatively today.  No one wants to hear negative stories or negative words.

Remember the time you thought you could never survive? You did, you can do it again. (By Tiny Buddha’s Inner Strength Journal).
I’m sure but not sure I could survive this time.