Dear Anita

just like you i had very little romance in my life , although i m not that self conscious about myself during the dates which were very few , i got very obsessed with guys around me , i made a big deal from very few gestures they did  in my mind and wasting my time daydreaming about them , like having a future and ...with no result . they werent even aware i had a crush on them , i was too cold and prideful to show it . i dont know if im exaggerating or not but NONE of them were a good much for me when i look back , i was choosing them subconsciously so if they left or that didnt work out , i would tell myself im better off without them and i dodge the bullet which is true , they werent good people, they werent a good match for most women but i chose them , i mean they were very similar . selfish , distant and arrogant and most of them wanted me to do all the work .like my mom?! what about you  do you see any pattern in men you were interested?

Farnaz