dear Anita

thank you for sharing these infos

i remember when i was a teenage and we were outside shopping , i chose stuff that i thought my mom would like not something i would constantly and i pretended i liked . i was scared my mom disprove it.

i was the golden child because i chose what my parents wanted to me to study , i dont say i dont like it because i do , i m a health care provider and i like interacting with people , but that was basically what my parents wanted me to do , i originally wanted to pursue art and i tried it , i was accepted in uni and i studied for a while but i realized i dont like it as a job but more as a hobby . and ultimately i changed my major to pursue my current job , my dad loved it and he was always bragging about me and how i can speak in several languages and im so and so , obviously i found it endearing but i knew his obssession over me was too much , he was very controlling over his children specially me , sometimes he was competing with me , sometimes impressing me , i knew that was unusual but i thought it was because i was his baby child , i lost my mom and he felt more responsible from me , i think my theory is not 100% wrong , he was worried about my well being and he wanted me to succeed in life but his intentions were very selfish too , he didnt tell me when he was getting married , he didnt want me socialize with people and he was disgusted whenever a man wanted to get close to me , and im sure he didnt want me to get married .i felt so free when he passed , not at the beginning at least now that im living in different place , i feel more free .

farnaz