Dear Anita

I thought that maybe you’ll stop posting because it (the reference)  would be too much for you.no , no , no , i admit that was disturbing for me , but im sorry for you , because you were in receiving end . she is the one to shame and im sure she doesnt see anything wrong with it , as my parents didnt .

 reads to me that he thought that if he expressed favoritism toward you, giving you this “gift” of favor, you will owe him a gift- or a favor- in return: paying attention to him exclusively (no 0ther man in your life), and competing with his wife for his affection (an ego boost for him). yes , i think you are right , and he supported me much longer than my other siblings , i felt like he meant you don`t need any man , and no men would do stuff i do for you , disgusting .

 His wife punished him for favoring you, so he feared her, and did what he thought he should do to please her the funny things about his wife was that she also think only about herself , she is a 12 years old in body of a sixty something woman , she was and is always comparing me with herself always competing always wanted to drag me down , im sure my dad had something to do with the jealousy , he was a master in mind f*****and im sure he played her insecurities and made her feel even worse , i believe if she was a better supply for him he wouldn`t bother to keep me around that long ,i think that would be better for me though .

sorry if i cursed in this post

have a good night sleep

farnaz