dear Anita

it`s always refreshing to see your posts , specially when you agree with me , lol .

no, i mean when you say screw these people

 never-ever-never-ever lol anything about her not feeling well. Instead of lol-s, there would be lots of woe-is-me, oh-how-terrible-is-my-life, poor me.. crying, wailing, complaining, accusing thats not surprising for me at all my mom was basically looking forward for opportunity to play a victim and she enjoyed that and she was obviosly thinking herself as better and more important that us , for example if i said something that scared me to death and made me so stresssed ,like a near accident  I would die immediately  i wouldnt survive that  , as if it didnt matter if that happened to me or any other person and also its an excuse for them to be even nastier ,  and they can guilt trip you if you get upset.

 I like the more stuff in a soup! that was delicious , i ate for you too , lol ,

I will borrow your expression earlier in your post (with a change of pronoun) because it is very fitting here: she is an a%% hole, screw her!  (Or maybe better say: she is an a%% hole, don’t let her screw you any more than she already did!) i totally agree with this paragraph and the next one you wrote in last post , she definitely misses her power , she doesnt know how she can reach me , when she married to my dad , from the beginning i believe she had a plan in her mind to make my life miserable , like cinderella's step mom , i guess , lol . but she was and still is so sneaky , she tried to cut my dad from me , then she tried to sabotage my education and my mental health , she does it by being passive agressive and do what ever that she knows she would piss me off , crazy making sneaky stuff ,  it was obvious that she wanted me as underdog who gets all the s^^^. screw her . i can imagine what she would say if she had a relationship with me or lives with me , in her dream of course, she would brag about her money which im not sure thats even there because ive never seen a rich person who says he is rich , she would brag about her brothers who live in us , about the car she is driving which was my dads , so its really  not hers and should be splitted after we sale it  and she would have no boundaries and invade every inch of my space and do all crazy making stuff .  in general she would brag about stuff she didnt actually achieve herself and frankly so petty . i dont mind about her bragging  but i do mind about the satisfaction she gets from it . so again screw her , let her say anythings she wants to say to drag me down in her eyes , nothing would change and she doesnt have the power anymore , and screw everyone who believes her , i dont need them 

 I used to buy a dozen after 12 pm (half price) and eat them all. Eventually, the magic of the donut was lost.

I hope that you continue to recover this weekend! By the way, do you like donuts? unfortunately yes , you know i have a problem with food i tend to eat emotionally , i gained 12 kilos after a hellish summer in Iran , when i had serious problems with my dad and his wife , i couldnt get rid of my extra kilos for years ,until 2 years ago , im still dieting because if i let myself go  , i would gain weight immediately , i only eat sweets once a week and other days i eat dark chocolate   , but i love them , not particularly donut , all the sweets , actually i remember another fights with my dad , i cut contact with him for one year and when he saw me he said oohh you didnt get any more weight , he liked the effect he had on me i guess , screw him too , i admit i have the tendency to think he wasnt in fault and his wife would make the  life  hell , but he enjoyed it , he definitely did .

i hope you enjoyed the thanksgiving though i believe it was 2 weeks ago?and i don`t think any one of childhood snacks which exist to these days , have the same taste maybe because they are industrially produced ?or there are too many shape and taste to choose from all the time ?

hope to hear from you soon

far