dear Anita

i used to get very frustrated when i was studying abroad , because every one would think Iran is a dessert and there is no rain or snow and greenery but to be fair the most part of iran is desert and the north is the only region which is green all the time .

 She would be 110 when she is released from prison, if she lives that long..  not likely, of course. My goodness. hell no  . she was so creepy , she was her own lawyer , as most narcs choose to do it . as she was interrogating her own ex husband whom she attempted to kill , the questions she asked him and her attempt to discredit him was  so cringy and weird.

 of course you are deeper now, as deep as can be, I say! thank you,that`s so nice of you .

you substituted a deep value for things. yes and also for people who weren`t worthy , to be honest people and their opinion in general .

 I don’t know if I know of.. happy people. Sometimes happy, yes, but not on a regular, ongoing basis. Throughout childhood, we all get a fair amount of happiness squeezed out of us, is my experience. of course happy people are not happy all the times , but they approach their problems differently which usually dont get them more miserable than necessary . you can face a problem with blaming everyone , god and your perceived misfortune in life or you can skip that part and instead of asking why that happened , looking for ways to control the damage and be your best friend . that all happens in the mind . in childhood we were blissfully naive , we didnt see the ugly side of the world or we couldn`t recognize it as wrong and ugly , so we were happier .

 this is what I grew up, maybe even more than you did, heavy duty criticisms of how people look. It is embarrassing to even remember it! and i`m 99% sure it comes from people who considered themselves as the most smart and sophisticated

 I helped her after all, by.. being there, doing nothing (other than passively receiving her abuse). im  sorry for the experience and for the time you wasted for fixing her , and im curious what was her reaction when you stopped contacting her ? i can imagine that can`t be good .

 how exciting, the idea that you might…awwww thank you.

i should take a milion exams though .

 this is the Farnaz Attitude that I love!!! lol , that`s why i said that and i mean it

have a good night sleep

far