This is just me sharing my thoughts 

I just hope that things will turn out well with her… getting better day by day… and we can both improve our relationship….

I’m still very new to being in a relationship (although me and her arent officially a couple yet)… But i’m still learning through every mistakes i made…. I’m also doing my best everyday for her, i hope she wont rush and judge me too much…..

I dont want weakness to cause her to avoid/leave me….

I hope i can keep finding creative ways to enjoy relationship with her…. Because im running out of unique ideas to impress her….

I’ve been interacting with her for 4 months, and this is the 5th month…. And i dont want her to feel un enthusiast to meet me….

I hope she wont feel that im boring….. It’s hard for me to be an alpha male (lots of friends, good at sports, manly)…

I know some will say that i dont have to be an alpha male (just like what helcat said, and i’m thankful for it)… but still most girls like alpha male right? And if we wanna be with girls, we need to adapt with their needs….

I also dont want other people to also comment that she choses a “weak guy” or a guy that’s not good enough… this is why i keep trying hard to not make mistakes, and to be more alpha….

This girl’s love language is act of service….

She always looks up to her sister, and her sister has an alpha boyfriend (soon to be her husband)… i hope her sister and her boyfriend wont judge me too harsh….

In less than 3 weeks im going to eat dinner with her family… with her parents, little brother, sister and her sister’s boyfriend… i hope everything will go well in that dinner, and i hope i can communicate well there…. And her parents will be friendly with me too…. The last meeting was quite good, but her parents didnt talk with me a lot…. I hope they can be more friendly towards me…..