Im still trying to find ways for me to not get insecure every time i saw that “cool guys” on social media….
Because every time i saw their post, i’ll keep feeling worried that she will choose those type of guys… as they have everything that i dont have…. It hurt me inside every time i think about it…

I keep planning every strategy everyday for me to improve the relationship while not making mistakes….

And yeah you are right, i just noticed i like to write a journal about my struggles here, because i dont feel like anyone understands me… and i wanna be heard about my struggles…. As i’ve been living in a lonely life and very isolated….