Dear helcat,

As your partner said nothing is concrete. Plans are subject to change.

= i’d like to re-discuss this,

Yes it is still nothing concrete, but the possibility of it happening is quite big, and if i could do anything to prevent it i would…. But i cant, it’s all personally on her….
So on this issue, do u think there’s nothing i could do besides hoping that she wont go and keep staying in my city?

Actually her plans are after she graduated from her uni (as she’s attending uni in our city), she plans to study fashion design for 3 months in the capital and see how it goes, she told me her mom already given her the approval…. I have about a year till she graduate, so i can spend a year with her in this city…. But it’d like to prevent her from going to the capital…. She told me it’s not fixed yet, as it’s all in her decision….
I’m afraid that if she decided to study for 3 months in the capital, she gets more opportunity there and prefers there than our city, that way she wont go back…. And i really fear that so much……

Sometimes i woke up few times in my sleep when it’s not my alarm yet, i woke up fearing that she’ll go to the capital and get more opportunities there and doesnt come back… It’s very very painful, how i wish people understand this….

What’s ur opinion about regarding this re-discussion?

Do u think i should hurry up and be good at what im doing now (my job) so she’d stay? As if i’m good with my job she might feel sure to be with me and plans to stay?